Severus Snape

[SEVERUS SNAPE]

• SEVERUS TOBIAS SNAPE •

Now the Dark Mark, it has appeared on me.
Lord Voldemort, he calls, but I want to be free.
From all the evil I have seen and I have done
So please believe it's over, the good in me has won.
People can change, people can change, they can turn their back and run.
People can change, people can change, I'm sorry for all the things I've done.

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I KNOW THAT I'M ALIVE
the basics
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full name, Severus Tobias Snape

nicknames, Severus had many nicknames in the past; some of which include: 'Sev' - used by Lily only; 'Snivellus' - or any variation thereof that was coined by the Marauders; and of course the 'Half-Blood Prince' which he created himself to honor his mother. These days though Severus doesn't accept any nicknames.

age, Forty.

birthday, 9, January, 1960

school, Hogwarts

house, Slytherin Alumni

occupation, Double-Agent; Potions Master

current location, Unknown

blood status, Half-Blood

wand, 11 inches, Dragon Heartstring, Cypress. Strong and hardy; good for defense.

broom, None

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WHEN YOU CALL ON ME
the appearance
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hair color, A shoulder-length ebony, which often looks greasy, lank, and lacklustered. It has no style or body at all. It's just... there.

eye color, Dark brown, although they look black.

height, 5'11'' However, Snape insists he is six feet even.

weight, 150-160 pounds. He doesn't really keep track.

distinguising features, One of the most recognizable features Severus has would have to be his nose. Not only did he inherit a large honker from his father, but it has been broken multiple times in the past. His nose is crooked and hooked and the nostrils are rather big.

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WHEN YOU REACH FOR ME
the personality
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likes,
• Lily Evans
• Potions
• The Dark Arts
• Hogwarts
• Being alone
• Mind games
• Chess
• Smoking
• Sarcasm
• Intelligence

dislikes,
• Physical contact
• The Marauders
• Tobias
• Pranksters
• Slackers
• Stupidity
• Failure
• Quidditch
• Clingy people

strengths,
• Potions
• The Dark Arts
• Occlumency/Legilimency
• Intelligent
• Cunning/Sly
• Nonverbal Casting
• Wandless Magic
• Expert Duelist

weaknesses,
• Fear of Physical Contact
• Physically Weak
• Quiet/Shy
• Cold/Distant
• Short Temper
• Harsh/Strict
• Social Ineptitude
• Lack of Affection

quirks/habits,
• Avoids physical contact
• Smokes
• Bites his lip when nervous or thinking
• Quirks his eyebrow for no particular reason other than the fact that he can
• Is ambidextrous
• Is bilingual (English and Latin)

worst fear, Snape is the type of man who controls his emotions a lot so he's not really used to them creeping up on him, let alone being completely out of control. The Dementors cause him to relive his worst memories, subjecting him to pain and the bitter taste of betrayal that he's kept buried under his shields. They play on his own internal conflict and guilt, making them ten times worse to deal with. He's strong enough to resist the pull which causes others to descend into the altered recollections, but he usually can't last long and always feels exhausted afterward.

best kept secret, Severus has many secrets, all of which he guards jealously. For example, he's still in love with Lily even though she's been dead for quite some time. Not many people know that he's a Half-Blood either since he's acted like a Pureblood for the majority of his life. He also plays both sides quite expertly, blurring the edge between good and evil because that was what he was asked to do.

patronus, When Severus realized that Lily was a witch, he immediately felt very connected to her because she was the one person he could talk to about Hogwarts with while he was at Spinner's End since such conversations were forbidden in his own house by Tobias. He soon developed a crush on her, although he never told her. He was afraid that it would somehow ruin their relationship... Sadly enough Severus doesn't have very many happy moments to remember. He relies on the one thing - or person - that has always brought him joy even though he has to take it with a grain of salt as well: Lily. Because of this Snape's Patronus resembles hers. It is a beautiful silver doe, well known for being active and sharp-minded not to mention graceful.

boggart, He calls his worst memory the 'Mudblood Incident.' During his fifth year, while he was being tormented by the Marauders and hanging by his ankle, Lily once again stepped up for him. Severus was embarrassed by the incident. He didn't want her to see him humiliated in front of the whole school so he said the unforgivable. He called her a Mudblood in order to force her away. Needless to say that worked far too well... Of course Severus has plenty of other bad memories of the abuse Tobias dished out on not only him but his mother Eileen as well. Then there's the time when he joined the Death Eaters, which was the biggest mistake he had ever made in his whole life and although he now tries to rectify the decision, he can't remove the Dark Mark.

amortenia, Lilies, lavender, smoke, a slight tang of metal.

relationship status, Single.

sexuality, Heterosexual when he's interested, but he pretty much turned Asexual after Lily died.

overall personality,

Truth be told Severus has always been broken on the inside. He has different mind settings because he fractured himself long ago in order to endure the abuse his Father dished out on him and then later on the Marauders. Unlike most people who claim to suffer from Dissociative Identity Disorder (or Multiple Personalities) though, Snape has the ability to pull out whichever person he needs in order to survive. Due to this, he's also always in control of himself and he never blacks out. His brain is a very organized thing with boxes upon boxes of various modes/masks that he puts on to protect his true self...

As a Death Eater, he knows what is expected of him and acts without thinking. He puts up a strong front of cold indifference and his face becomes emotionless. He acts like how people expect him to be, which isn't that difficult because he's been pretending to be a Pureblood ever since he entered Hogwarts. He has a certain submissiveness to his personality and will bow to peer pressure rather than state his own opinion. He prowls around with a couple of people that are a bad influence on him: Lucius, Avery, Mulciber, and a few others who claim to be in the Dark Lord's inner circle. They rely on him for his intelligence as well as his ability to brew Potions.

Speaking of intelligence, Severus is extremely so. He applies himself to everything that he does, always desiring to be the best. He has been known to cut corners in Potion-Making and invent his own spells. He's also quite logical, preferring to think before acting. He sometimes spends hours on one assignment due to his perfectionism. He can't stand grammar errors or improper punctuation. He never slacks off and he always hands everything in on time. Because of his strict nature regarding school, Snape is not very fond of those people who rarely ever seem to study and yet receive good marks.

He is a natural loner. Severus is shy and usually acts nervous around others because of this. He often uses his wit to express himself when he needs to. Sarcasm is the only weapon he has (besides his wand anyway) and while it makes some think that Severus is cynical, he just likes biting back. It gives him a sense of accomplishment and deep satisfaction, especially when his words hit home. He isn't much of a social butterfly, which should be obvious by this point, so he comes off as distant and cold a lot of the time. He doesn't really care what other people think and he doesn't go out of his way to make friends either. He isn't a very likable person.

Snape is also childish sometimes. He has a quick temper and when he gets riled up, he often yells. Although he would never raise his hand against a child or a woman, he has been known to resort to violence whenever necessary. Due to his lack of physical strength though he often relies on his wand or Magic to do the job. He has a low level of self-esteem because he's been told that he won't ever amount to anything for as long as he can remember. Severus may be powerful in his own right, but he doesn't believe in himself and he always cracks down on himself harder than he should since there's always room for improvement...

With Lily, he's like a different person. Or he was. He was kinder, nicer, and more prone to accept physical contact (especially if she was the one doing it). He loved her with every fiber of his being. He gave her the best of himself, but she never noticed because he was subtle in his ways. He didn't know how to advance things properly since he's never really seen romance in action before and often shies away from affection anyway. His love bordered on obsession though. He never acted like Potter by pursing her relentlessly; however, he knew or felt as if she was 'the one.' Snape won't take anyone else. Ever since losing her, he lost a part of himself. He closed himself off even more. He retreated deep into himself, turning to other things such as Potions and the Dark Arts so he wouldn't have to deal with the pain anymore.

Severus has only survived with his boxes for so long because he is a natural Occlumens. He blocks certain aspects of himself when they are not needed and then brings them out when they are. If he were to lose himself anymore then he would basically just fall apart; perhaps even descend into madness (assuming if that hasn't already happened anyway). Ever since the murder of Harry Potter, Snape's behavior has become more and more erratic as the years go by.

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WHEN YOU BLESS THE DAY
the history
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mother, Eileen Rosa Snape (nee Prince), 36/61, Pureblood. -- Deceased
Unfortunately Severus was neglected on both sides. Eileen was distant not because she wanted to be, but due to the fact that it was almost a requirement. She used to chop ingredients at the Apothecary in Diagon Alley; however, after she moved to Spinner's End, she went into Muggle mode. She worked two jobs: both of which was a waitress-type of position at two well-known restaurants that were at either end of town. She pulled double-shifts sometimes so often enough she was a scant figure in her son's life. Despite this, Severus felt very connected to his mother because she was a freak like him. No one really noticed that she was sick until it was too late and by then there was nothing that could be done. She passed away over Christmas Break during Severus's fifth year at Hogwarts.

father, Tobias Gabriel Snape, 45/65, Muggle. -- Deceased
Severus both hated and feared his father. To say that Tobias was a good and loving man would be a lie. Although he acted romantic with Eileen at first, he quickly changed as soon as the two were married. He was an alcoholic who often gets carried away under the influence. He was abusive in all aspects of the word; mentally, emotionally, and physically. He used to work at the factory near Spinner's End, but when it shut down Tobias started to drink even more. He held a few odd jobs as a janitor and maintenance man, but they never lasted long. Tobias was killed in a car crash.

siblings, None

extended family, None that he knows of

others of importance, He thinks highly of Dumbledore; perhaps because the former Headmaster of Hogwarts gave him a second chance to redeem himself and to wash the blood from his hands. He was deeply grateful for that opportunity.

overall history,

Like most women before her, Eileen Rosa Prince was engaged to a wealthy man of high standards and a strong bloodline, but she wasn't interested in him because there was no love between them so she ran away. She settled down near Diagon Alley in Muggle London. She then got a job in the Apothecary chopping ingredients; however, she rarely went behind the cauldron. She met Tobias Snape on the streets and she was instantly attracted to him not because of how handsome he was (far from it), but due to his romantic personality. He was a gentleman who often sent her flowers or read her beautiful poetry. He basically 'courted' her for more than a year before he popped the question.

Their wedding was simple yet lovely. As soon as they were married, Tobias began to change. He sometimes got a little carried away when he drank too much and he was obviously an alcoholic. Eileen stayed with him though because she foolishly believed she could help. Nine months later she brought Severus Tobias Snape into the world on January 9th, 1960 and life improved at Spinner's End for a brief time. Eileen often entertained the baby with bits of Magic until Tobias found out and broke her wand. Then, when the factory shut down, things went from bad to worse.

The abuse often got physical and as soon as Severus began to display 'symptoms,' Tobias turned his hand both ways. The boy went on to learn how to use his uncontrolled bursts of Magic to heal the wounds, but over time it was not enough for he soon had scars that laced his back. Severus never went to Muggle school so he learned what he could from the few books that were laying around to whatever his mother let slip on her good days. Whenever his father was at work or passed out on the couch he often snuck away from Spinner's End. He shadowed Petunia and Lily Evans for almost a year before he finally plucked up enough courage to introduce himself. He soon told Lily that she was a witch and they quickly became friends. Petunia didn't seem to like him as much though so he was cruel towards her. One day he even accidentally punished her for spying on him and Lily by causing a branch to fall and crack her on the head. He also convinced Lily to read Petunia's private letter to Dumbledore. Although the two sisters might have been drifting apart on their own, Severus was definitely an added wedge to the equation.

Finally the owl from Hogwarts came. Once they were on the train Severus expressed his desire to be in the same house as his best friend, of course mentioning Slytherin in the process. James Potter and Sirius Black made a few choice comments that soon forced the other two to find a different compartment. The rest of the ride passed by uneventfully after that. The Sorting Hat placed Lily in Gryffindor while Severus became a Slytherin. They still stayed friends though despite the rivalry between their houses.

For some reason Potter and Black decided that Snape was the perfect target for their pranks. Lily stuck up for him more than once, but she seemed to be the only one who did. He quickly developed a crush on her because of this as well as a few other contributing factors. Aside from the almost daily bullying, Severus loved everything about Hogwarts. He applied himself to his schoolwork and he soon became known for his intelligence. He avoided his own housemates for that first year, either spending his time alone or with Lily. When he finally returned to Spinner's End for the summer Tobias burned all of his books and the older man would have broke his wand too if Eileen hadn't stepped in. The rest of that summer was full of argument after argument until Tobias agreed to at least let Severus learn those freaky ways. He could always trample over the boy later...

It was sometime during his second year at school when Lily suggested that he find some other friends to hang out with. She was convinced he would get lonely with only her as his constant companion and so Severus bowed to her greater insights. He soon struck up an odd relationship with Mulciber and Avery. They were against his 'Mudblood' best friend from the very beginning; however, they needed Snape for his intelligence and so they didn't protest as much as other 'Pures' would have. There was an obvious fracturing in Severus's persona when he was accepted for a Slytherin. He began to switch modes/masks as needed in order to better protect himself. He was interested in Potions (quickly proving himself to be a master in that particular subject) and the Dark Arts, if only to use it against the Marauders or on his father... The rest of his time at Hogwarts passed by uneventfully until his fourth year.

When Severus was about fourteen, he deemed himself old enough for a girlfriend and of course Lily was his first choice. He was subtle in his ways though for he had no idea how to display affection or show romance. Due to his deepening relationship with Lily, he grew more annoyed with Potter as a result. Potter had been chasing the redhead ever since she had declined one of his date offers. The animosity between Snape and the Marauders is nothing new though. As his advancements had yet to make an impression on the girl of his dreams, he got interested in other things. He hung out with his Slytherin friends more as he and Lily started to drift apart...

During the summer before his fifth year, he noticed that his mother was acting more distant than usual. She would shiver or cough sometimes, but whenever Severus voiced his concern she would push it away. It was just a little cold she often said. It should pass after a couple of days. Due to Eileen's lack of response to the abuse, Tobias turned more to the young teen instead. Severus was glad when school started; however, the Professors seemed keen to prepare everyone for the OWLs or NEWTs respectively. It was hard, but Severus excelled under pressure. He went home to Spinner's End for Christmas Break because he was worried about his mother and he was surprised to find her even worse off than she had been just a few months ago. He cared for her, doing what he could, and yet it was not enough. The fluid soon built up in her lungs until she finally breathed her last breath. Although Severus wasn't exactly close to either of his parents he felt particularly connected to his mother because she had been a freak just like him so her death hit him hard.

After his mother died, he began smoking. Of course he knew the risks. He wasn't stupid, after all; however, he couldn't bring himself to care. Once he started it became difficult to stop. It helped him forget about things for a time. It made him feel slightly numb and it definitely helped him relax. It was a way for him to unwind. Obtaining cigarettes at Hogwarts was a little more difficult, but he found someone in the Hog's Head who would sell them to him cheap. Smoking became more of an addiction than a release method for him after that. He could barely get through the day without going through a whole pack.

Snape became more distant in school. He barely spoke to Lily, preferring to either spend his time alone or with his other so-called friends. He applied himself until the point where he became obsessive about it. A combination of things caused the whole 'Mudblood Incident.' First Potter and Black began tormenting him like they did almost every day. Then Lily came to his rescue as was her wont to do, but Severus had been humiliated for the last time. He couldn't take this anymore. After he was on the ground and Potter called him lucky for having a friend like the redhead he said the unforgivable. There was no going back for either of them afterwards...

OWL Results:
Astronomy: E
Care of Magical Creatures: O
Charms: E
Defense Against the Dark Arts: O
Divination: A
Herbology: O
History of Magic: E
Potions: O
Transfiguration: E

Because Severus was not yet 'of age,' he was forced to return to Spinner's End where he only managed to survive by threatening his Muggle father with Magic. Tobias believed him despite the fact that it was forbidden, but illusion and slight of hand did much to help Severus's cause... As the summer started to wane though the Slytherin teen began to realize what he was doing. He was turning into someone that he didn't want to become. He immediately sought out Lily in order to apologize in a heart-felt matter, but she refused to listen to him.

In his sixth year, Severus experienced another unpleasant event: The Werewolf Incident. He had always wondered where Lupin went so when Black told him he had to go off and see for himself. He immobilized the Whomping Willow and followed the path down to the Shrieking Shack. He saw a flash of fur and fangs before Potter pulled him back. Snape felt terrified. There was a werewolf running around Hogwarts?! To his knowledge neither Potter or Black were punished for their actions. Despite this he swore to the Headmaster that he would not divulge Lupin's secret though.

Once he turned seventeen, Severus ran away from Spinner's End for good. He had tried before, of course, but he had not been able to leave his mother there alone. With her out of the picture it became relatively easily for him to leave his less than stellar history behind. The memories still bothered him occasionally so he tried his best to suppress them, unconsciously using his own natural ability at Occlumency. Severus had no where to go and not much money to use. The Snape family had never been a rich one. His mother had left him a small sum of gold, but it wasn't nearly enough to live off of. He rented a room in the Leaky Cauldron just until Hogwarts would start. He made Potions and sent them off to the local Apothecary in Diagon Alley.

NEWT Results:
Charms: E
Defense Against the Dark Arts: O
Herbology: O
History of Magic: O
Potions: O
Transfiguration: E

Snape graduated pretty close to the top in his year. He had only been a few paces behind Lily Evans and Lupin, which was impressive for a Slytherin. He was soon lured to the Death Eaters. Severus went to one of the meetings on his own free will under the sponsorship of Lucius Malfoy. He couldn't see how the Purebloods would benefit from purging the world because the old families already practiced intermarriage. Such genetics produced Squibs... This was only a minor flaw though compared to what the Dark Lord could offer. He was taken in by fancy words and false promises. By the end of that night he was admiring the Dark Mark upon his left forearm.

As a Death Eater Severus never did too much. His job was to brew Potions. The Dark Lord had desperately needed a Master within the lab so that job fell to him. He created many fine concoctions, including one that mocked the Cruciatus Curse and one which tore at your insides while still leaving you alive. They were pretty much used in torturing Muggles and Aurors. Snape even had the privilege of watching a few work. None of them disgusted him as they should have; in fact, he was rather proud. For once in his life he had a purpose.

A year passed in this manner before the Dark Lord purposed a new job. It seemed that Professor Slughorn was retiring from Hogwarts as the Potions Master. Severus was ordered to obtain the position so he could spy on Dumbledore and keep an eye out for any interesting students. He sent off his resume without further ado. He was asked to meet the Headmaster at the Hog's Head in Hogsmeade. Snape arrived early. He waited down in the bar for a while before climbing up the stairs. It shouldn't take this long! He was unaware that Dumbledore was interviewing Trelawney until he got to the door...

The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord approaches... Born as the seventh month dies... Born to those who thrice defied him... And the Dark Lord will mark him as his equal...

That was all Severus heard before he was taken by the ear by Aberforth Dumbledore and thrown out of the Hog's Head.. While he enjoyed his job brewing Potions for his Master, he thought that such information would move him up a few ranks. He would surely be favored by the Dark Lord for bringing back such a Prophecy so that was exactly what he did and that was what happened. Snape secured his position at Hogwarts and things went back to normal... sort of. The war was still going on of course. A lot of deaths and disappearances were taking place, but it had no effect on him.

Then, one day, the Death Eaters were let in on a little secret: Voldemort was going to target the Potters. It felt like everything froze into place. Severus merely stared. His thoughts went to Lily for the first time since he graduated (although she was always on the back of his mind, she just never got to the forefront very much). He couldn't lose her. He risked his life to plead for hers. He knew he deserved something for the information he had brought, but he wasn't sure if the Dark Lord would grant his wish. So he made a deal; however, it wasn't enough for him because he knew by now that Voldemort couldn't be trusted.

Snape ran to Dumbledore as a last resort. He begged and pleaded, basically prostituting himself before the older man until finally the Headmaster asked him a strange question. "What will you do in return?" "Anything." Severus had replied after a moment. He didn't expect his answer to lead him down such a path though. He was quickly inducted into the Order of the Phoenix and he took on a dangerous role: spying. He became a double-agent so it was his job to inform the others about attacks or the like whenever he could. He knew he was walking a thin line, but it would be worth it if Lily was spared...

It was Dumbledore who taught Severus how to perfect his talents in Occlumency. He now possessed a mind so shielded that even the best Legilimens in the world had trouble delving past his barriers. As a matter of fact, for Snape, it was too good to be true. He placed all of his bad memories (sessions with Tobias, losing Lily, joining the Death Eaters) in a room and locked the door so he can never look back and remember who he had been. Another year passed in this manner as Snape skirted the edge and blurred the lines together until he could no longer tell which side he was actually working for. Then Lily and James Potter were betrayed and murdered. Lily's death hit Severus hard. Very hard. He even considered committing suicide... But Dumbledore talked him out of it and convinced the Potions Master to stay on in an effort to help watch over Harry Potter, Lily's son.

When Voldemort was defeated the Wizarding World let out a collective sigh of relief. It appeared that the War was over and many people began to relax, except for a few. Severus' Dark Mark had faded, but it was still there which left him with the assumption that it could disappear entirely. Seeing that it hadn't only meant one thing: The Dark Lord was not dead. Never being a stupid man, Snape mentioned this to Dumbledore... Only the Headmaster didn't seem entirely surprised and merely told him to relax while he could.

Snape continued brewing and teaching at Hogwarts. He continued filing information and curiosities in his head for the eventual return of his Master. The next decade or so just sort of blended together and Severus went through the motions to an almost mechanical extent. It wasn't until Harry Potter - the Boy-Who-Lived - arrived that he really started paying attention again. It was a well-known fact that Severus loathed the boy from the get go, but because of his promise he saved Potter's life more than once. It was during the first Quidditch match when he became suspicious of the new Defense Against the Dark Arts Professor. He even tried to get past Fluffy (Hagrid's three-headed dog) and got himself bitten in the process. Much too soon Harry rose to the call, saving the Sorcerer's Stone and accidentally killing Quirrell as a result.

The next year was just as eventful with the Chamber of Secrets reopening. The Weasley girl was captured and in the end Potter saved the day once more. The boy's third year started off with notorious murderer Sirius Black escaping from Azkaban and Lupin taking over as Defense Against the Dark Arts Professor. When Severus wasn't teaching or grading assignments, he spent much of his time brewing Wolfsbane - which was a particularly difficult Potion. Then one fateful night Lupin had missed a dose and Snape ended up unconscious in the Shrieking Shack. He was outraged that Black had managed to escape and even more so when Dumbledore told him to leave it be. Black was innocent. The Triwizard Tournament followed next year, in which Potter was chosen as the fourth champion. The tasks were extremely dangerous and Snape wasn't the only one who tried to convince the Headmaster to not let the boy compete. Through it all the Dark Mark grew more noticeable.

And then the worst thing happened. Harry was murdered during the Triwizard Tournament.Through his shock and anger at not being able to even protect Lily's son, Snape was almost beside himself. Finally, at long last, the Call came. Voldemort had returned. He knew the Order still needed him though - now more than ever - so he picked up his old profession of Spying again. e waited two hours before answering the summons, ensuring his position with the Order and among the Death Eaters... But of course he had to prove his loyalty first. He was well accustomed to maintaining his Occlumency shields under the assault though and he had plenty of experience with the Cruciatus Curse. The Dark Lord believed him so Snape started blurring the lines together again. He didn't necessarily make trusting him easier either though.

Rumors flew among both sides, which only guaranteed him a longer life-line. Walking the edge was no mere feat though and Dumbledore pushed him more relentlessly than ever before; however, Severus had long ago forgotten how to complain about such treatment...

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Severus' eyes snapped open as his hand flew to his neck, where it stayed while he waited for his breathing to even out. He slowly pulled his palm away and noted with surprise that there was no blood or pain. It still felt too real though. Had it just been a nightmare?

A dark calculating gaze took in his surroundings until relief washed through him when he realized he was at Spinner's End. He was safe for the moment, but he couldn't help wondering if his dream was really a vision from the future. He knew the Dark Lord would have to kill him eventually, but like that… Well, it wasn't quite the way he had imagined it. He didn't really see his death as some heroic act either though. He wasn't about to jump in fatal paths to sacrifice himself for the Greater Good. He had important work to do and he just couldn't risk exposing the loyalties he held too soon.

Snape rubbed his neck where the snake had bitten him again, but there was nothing there. It still felt too real… He drew in a deep breath and let it out in a shuddering sigh before he swung himself out of bed. He walked into his bathroom where he had to stop again as he caught sight of his reflection. He was a lot younger than the last time he checked. Snort.

The nightmare came back to him in flashes. It wasn't a vision from the future after all… It was a vision from the past! He felt sure of it. He didn't believe in coincidences anymore (Dumbledore had snuffed that out of him). Was he dead? His eyes swept around again and he frowned. He didn't believe in Heaven and Hell like most, but he hadn't been expecting this. He pinched himself. No, he was still alive. He examined the reflection another time and that was when he realized that he had a second chance. He could set right what once went wrong.

Severus pondered that for a while until he discarded the notion. He had no idea if changing the Future was what he had been 'reincarnated' for. He didn't even know if he was the only one who knew the Future or not and it was best to keep such information to himself. It would be difficult to explain; not to mention the fact that people would probably think him insane. He should watch for signs though. If he wasn't the only one, then other people could come up with the same idea and not be able to pass it up.

His fingers went over his neck a third time and he wondered whether he could forget. The feeling still lingered. He wouldn't be surprised if he started to bleed… He sighed. He finished the rest of his routine with only one thought on his mind: He had to see Lily. He didn't know what he was going to say to her, but he hoped he could figure it out. He wasn't going to make the same mistake.

Snape considered all the possible locations that Lily could be at. There was no guarantee she would be out shopping and it wasn't a good idea to meet her at home. He wanted the chance to speak to her before she walked away or slammed a door. That left Headquarters. Besides, he needed to prostitute himself to Dumbledore. Even though his faith in the Headmaster was shaken, he realized the importance of his role.

So there he stood in front of a nondescript building, wondering if he was in the right place. He had already spoken to Dumbledore and was (once again) accepted as a member of the Order of the Phoenix. He wouldn't have been able to see the building otherwise, what with the numerous charms protecting it; not to mention a Secret Keeper. He licked his lips, swallowed, and then entered. The interior wasn't much better. The short entrance hall was choked with dust. It might have once been a beautiful house, but it had aged and fallen into disrepair. He didn't think he would run into Lily right away, but she would come to the meetings if she was a member at all. He could wait. He only had to worry about his Mark burning.

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this entire application was made by HARPER BELLE?! of caution. lyrics by celine dion, from her song 'i'm alive'. please do not steal. it's not nice, and there's no reason for it. if you do use this, please credit me!

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